Mixed feelings

How can I begin to describe my feelings today ? It's a mixture of happiness and a little bit of shame. I guess I learnt an invaluable lesson today. Let this be a reminder not to repeat the same mistake.

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Oh oh by the way, am loving my birthday presents this year. I got a belt and a watch, which I had plans to buy and some skin-care products, which I do *heart*. It's as if my friends had read my mind.

Am a little curious on what dad got me. Cause he said he wanted to pass me something. Hopefully it would be something I like.

Ah ... can't believe the 4 days of raya holidays have come to its end. Seem like it went by in a blink of an eye. Yet I did not have any progress in the ... drama series/movies I have prepared for the holidays. Let's look at what was on my list:

Drop Dead Diva
D.I.E
Vampire Diaries
Melrose Place
Gossip Girl
Ghost of Girlfriends Past

Thought of doing some reading in preparation for my ACCA Mock Exam, well, I did do some reading, just that it was Terry Goodkind's 'Wizard's First Rule'.

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Don't know why, but I suddenly really miss the BC, though I just saw them a while ago. It's like I'm afraid of losing them, not because of a quarrel or the like, but because of time and changing circumstances.

Soon some of them would get married, some would find their significant other. Not that I wouldn't be happy for them, it's just that it wouldn't be the same. I just wish I could freeze this moment.

Suddenly so many things I held on to seem so petty now, suddenly I start to see things in a different light. Let me remember this awakening.

Busy and Leisure

This week has been both hectic and leisure.

Throughout the beginning of the week I've been rushing to finish the engagement. So I came home on Monday at 3 am. On Thursday, I was supposed to attend a stock-take over at Shah Alam, but I was released from the job. I was actually pretty excited about it, though I'm supposed to attend it alone and would have to find my way there myself, which I am pretty bad at.

But well, it gave me this sense of independence. Too bad I was released.

You see, though I'm doing audit, but the industry I'm assigned to specializes in Financial Services. So there is no stock-take except for cash count (heh-heh). So this stock-take that I'm assigned to is actually another industry's job.

Anyways, as I was released from the stock-take this week, tomorrow would be my self-declared holiday. Yay ! (Now I seriously hope none of my colleagues are reading this)

Next week I'd still be on the same job, hopefully something good turn's up !