08 December, 2009

Stalkerish

Since I'm having 2 weeks of study leave, I've been doing something rather stalkerish.

The story goes like this:

It was during my primary 6 graduation trip. I was lucky enough to be in the same group of students from class 6S. I was in 6R you see.

There was this boy, which became the talk of my female classmates. Ok, he doesn't exactly have that to-die-for kind of looks, but he had qualities which I must admit, are rather attractive.

He was smart, being in the best class among the 5 (I was in the 3rd), bespectacled, tall, english-speaking, charismatic, a prefect, rich, and rather cute. How do I know he's rich ? Well, he told me his parents gave him 200 bucks to spend on that 4 days trip, which is considered a lot, given that age.


Flipping through the photo albums, I realized that I was actually in the same class as him during primary 2 !

And my fondest memory of the trip was: you know during those times, there was this kind of machine for kids. You put in 20 or 50 cents, and you can spin the knob to get all kinds of toys. In my case, it was those egg-sized container which opens with a toy inside.

So he actually bought a few and gave them to me !!!

*** Forward to the present day. A couple of years back, I was working in World of Cartoons at Midvalley. Guess who I saw there ? Jeng jeng jeng, him ! Shopping with his mum. Not long later, I saw him again in Jalan Telawi, Bangsar. A couple of days later, I saw him again at the cinema! Oh the cheesiness.

Anyways, these days I've trying to search for him through facebook via friends of the same primary school. I even googled him. But sadly, to no avail. Stakerish ?

Roads

Haven @ LookOut Point

Just had dinner with a bunch of friends. Should not have gone out, but I guess, what the hell. Talked about a myriad of affairs. One friend recounted that he had on several occasions took drives out at night ALONE to Genting for a cuppa coffee, to Putrajaya or just pure wandering around KL.

Ok, that's a little weird but kinda cool too. Just thought I ought to try it some time. Maybe I could improve on my sense of directions. Which sucks big time I tell you.

Oh, dinner tonight was kinda wonderful. There were moments that we were just listening to the live music of Eric Clapton's Wonderful Tonight, John Denver's Leavin' on a Jet Plane, Glenn Medeiros' Nothing Can Change My Love for you. Although we weren't talking, it was not at all awkward. I guess comfort does come with long association.

I personally like this rendition of Wonderful Tonight by Michael Buble.



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Suddenly, I long for a holiday by the beach with a book in my hand. Dare I travel alone coming holidays in December ? Pulau Tiga seems tempting.

03 December, 2009

Unintentional

I was mean today. I don't know what got into me. I need to control my temper.

I sat here reflecting and realized I was mean in so many occasions. Just because others' actions seemed absurd, I make nasty and sarcastic remarks. Who am I to judge ?

02 December, 2009

Anti-social

I'm totally worried that I'm becoming anti-social. Since working, I've intentionally missed 3 company events: Sport club's dinner (which I contribute 5 dollars a month), group trip and industry dinner.

In fact, I had actually signed up for the group trip to prove to myself that I'm not anti-social but I ended up lying about being sick.

I feel kinda pathetic having seen others having a time of their lives getting to know their colleagues and making new friends while I am here friendless. Well, I do meet acquaintances but I just haven't found someone or a group of individuals that are my clique.

I just don't feel comfortable attending these events and I haven't an idea why. Maybe I'm just unwilling to step out of my comfort zone ? Maybe I'm feeling insecure ?