The thrill

Finally .... FINALLY the exam's over !
And now I have 3 months of holidays.

Perhaps it's the prospect of unlimited time to my dispense that I'm feeling a wee-bit miserable today. It's like I've been reflecting on numerous things of the past and quite suddenly, I feel like a wicked witch.

Anyways, after going to sleep at the earliest bedtime ever (7pm), I could finally began my drama series marathon today. But you know what, the feeling was not as great as I've anticipated it to be.

Somehow, when I had loads of assignments to complete and with exams around the corner, the time which I took off to watch TV seems so much more satisfying, captivating and entertaining.

I guess it's the thrill of doing something you're not supposed to.

Just like when my parents used to stop me from staying late to watch 'Buffy, the vampire slayer' (which I did it anyway), it felt so nice. The thrill of getting into trouble is the word.

Maybe I should try stealing this holidays? Haha ...

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Haih, 2 more days of exams ... I'm breaking apart.
The 1st day of my exam was the blardy golfer's paper. While I was so ever focused in vomiting everything I've studied, I sense an intense stare.

And so I looked around to see where the 'kill air' (杀气 ) was coming from and whadya know? It was her.

Probably jealous of my 'focused look', which is ever so angelic (see that's how my name came about) and irresistible. (Okay, you may puke now)

You know what? Maybe she's secretly in love with me. (Oh, you know no one can resist me) And all this time she was trying to get my attention. Such effort ! Well, I can't stop others from falling madly in love with me right?

Better get back to work. It's 12.32 am and I still have tonnes to memorize.
Wish me luck !

Neighbour

Recently I found out about something disturbing.

My maid and mum have been talking about our neighbour, an old couple. Accordingly, the husband has lost the capability to walk and is attended to by his wife. Now, the wife has begun to lose her patience and is constantly beating him. I have not heard or witness anything until today.

Today, I heard the old man whimpering "放过我" in Cantonese. Means 'let me go'. Well, I didn't exactly see him being bound or something, but I couldn't help but wonder, is his wife actually abusing him?

I don't want to be nosy, but what if something bad is really happening and I did nothing. What if the old man is suffering so badly and I'm being ignorant. Yet at the same time, maybe things are not as serious as it seems and if I did something, I might actually bring more trouble than help.

Does this matter require a police report? Maybe I should investigate further before doing anything harsh. But I can't be peeking at my neighbour right? And it's not a very good view from my house either.

My maid told me that the couple lives with their children, but their children are normally around only at night, as they are working. Could they have not realised that such things are happening?

What should I do?

Cowzen Power Gathering

Just yesterday, or a couple of hours ago, Malikuti organized the first ever Cowzen Gathering. Invitations were opened to cousins only, strictly no 'old folks'.

It was held at his new home in Puchong. As usual, I was lost on my way there. (I'm starting to think I can never join Amazing Race. Unless I have a partner who is extremely good at roads) Nevertheless, finally found my way with the help from Malikuti.

I thought that when I reach, it would be: "I'm sorry, you're the last team to arrive and you're eliminated from the race." But well, being the usual Lim Clan, everyone was late and I was actually the second to arrive.

Notice MsRedd with her silly face

We had a wonderful dinner. Pastas and terrific mashpotato. I ate so much I could puke. Wonderful cooking, Malikuti !

Jerry brought along his Nintendo Wii, a super cool game console.


Nintendo Wii

What? You have not heard of Nintendo Wii? Katak di bawah tempurung lah. Don't worry, you're not alone, I didn't know about it until today.

Wii Remote

Nintendo Wii is a revolutionary new game console that uses a combination of built-in accelerometers and infrared detection to sense its position in the 3D space when pointed at the LEDs within the sensor bar. It allows users to control the game using physical gestures as well as traditional button presses.

It's just super cool ok?

At first, we started by playing tennis. And Kevin totally rocks in this arena. Jon lost to him kau kau.

No wonder he won lah. Just look at how intense his face was.

Then we played bowling. See me in action.




And then it was the most exciting game ever. BOXING !


MsRedd in action

With Nintendo Wii, there's no need to go to the gym. After playing the boxing game, I could feel the sore at my arms.

I had such a blast that I totally lost track of time. At first I planned to bum around for around two hours only. Cause I have yet to finish my assignment and exam's around the corner. In the end, I was there for 4 whole hours. But it was totally worth it.

The Lim Clan cowzens. Except Angie lah, she's my cousin's gf.

I had such a wonderful time. Nice bonding session. Thanks Malikuti for organizing it!

P.S. Good choice on this gf Ben. Very sweet lady.

Misuderstood

Do we need the acceptance of everyone? Do you sometimes feel like you are very much misunderstood?

For instance, supposedly I appear to be quite a confident and hardworking person. (Which is not the truth at all) One fine day, a coursemate of mine, YY asked me whether I've completed my assignment. And I told her I had not even started. (Which is the truth) And then I found out that she thought I was lying.

Similarly, sometimes I act in a way in which I thought showed care. Instead, it was interpreted as being busy body or irritating. Which puts me in a dilemma, should I ask when something seems wrong?

Like I say, the complications of relationships.

Well, we can't please everyone.

Rush

It was completed at 3 pm. And my assignment was due at 5 pm the same day.
This is the first time I've completed my assignment so last minute.

Indeed I started late, but the main reason for the late completion was ...

The day before, I sat in front of the computer, with Microsoft Words opened, psyched to start on it ... when I realised that I couldn't type a single word. And then it was 8 pm, and I was still clueless. 12 am came and I've only typed a couple of lines. Stressed, I started playing Chess Titans, Spider Solitaire and then another hour or two was gone. (Imagine the nerve right? Playing games when my assignment has not been completed)

Anyways, that was my Mother's Day. Initially we were supposed to eat out, but well because of me, it was celebrated at home, where we had to settle with a take-out.

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Yesterday, Ashley became my official cousin and Godsister too. So that's news to celebrate.

Sad news for today though, I've failed to obtain the Help scholarship, and I've had high hopes. That's RM 4,000 out of my pocket. Why didn't I work harder? All because of that stupid golfer lah, my auditing grades was the culprit that pulled my grades down.

Must really work hard now if I would want to retain any more hopes of getting a first class honors degree. I must get around 70 for all my 3rd year modules. Possible? Chances are rather slim.

Oh, my little sister's A-level exam begins today. All the best !

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Oh, oh, oh and ... I'm developing a multimedia speaker fetish recently.

I totally lurrve this speaker. I feel in love the instant I saw it in Godpa's house.



So cool right? It's called Soundsticks II by Harman Kardon. Just thought I'd write it here. Well you know, September's coming and I certainly wouldn't mind getting this.

Another speaker I've got my eyes on is ...

Sonic Gear's Evo 5

This is actually quite affordable. But my current speaker is working fine, and so I've got no excuse to get a new one.

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Signing off with a meaningful quote:

' When you tend to your surface, you are making a statement of faith. You are saying, I matter. You are saying, the world is worth dressing for. You are engaging in the best kind of optimism that propels you out of bed in the morning, that directs you to the day. When you put on nice clothes, you are putting on hope; you are saying, "Here I am. This is fun. Look at me." '~ Lauren Slater

Btw, am loving Windows Vista Ultimate. Vibrant colors, sleek design. Everyone should try it.

Do you remember?

I remember crying profusely on the 4th day of Standard 1. Mum came to school with me for three days, and on the fourth day I was on my own. The moment I was sent onto the school bus, I felt like I wanted mommy so badly. Funny, the sight of mum used to make feel so comfortable. The fact that she was standing at the window of my classrooom made me feel secure and protected.

I remember being so attached to her. Every evening, I looked forward for her to come back home. At night, before we sleep, I would give her a body massage while we talked, and I loved talking to her then. She was my best friend then and I'd tell her all of my problems. When we finally decide to sleep, I'd always say 'Goodnight mommy'.

When I found out that women have menses, I thought that they'd have it everyday of their life. And I was so worried and sad for mom. Having to bleed everyday and feel the pain at the tummy. So, I did the stupid thing of preparing her undies with the sanitary pad, despite it was no longer needed.

But then I grew up. And I started arguing. (yes, I argued when I was younger too, but on different terms) I said hurtful things and I was not supportive enough. I get irritated easily, and I treat my friends better than I treat her. When she's the one person that will never abandon me, and would genuinely share my joy and sadness.

I keep saying that she's pessimistic, that she's not strong enough. But now I could finally feel how she felt, when the incident happened. How lost and betrayed she must have felt. Despite hating her life, her job, she hangs on so that she could provide for us.

Because of us, she has to resort to second best. The largest portion of her money earned is allocated to us, that she has to think twice when she wanted a new shirt or a new pants. When I, on the other hand gets to purchase the occasional 'nike' shoes.

I'm sorry for being such an unappreciative daughter. I'm glad that I came to my senses. I'll try my best to change.

Happy be'earlied' Mother's Day !

Human Relations

Today the golfer threw her infamous end-of-the-semester tantrum again. I won't go through the details but well it ended with her canceling our revision class, apparently extremely disappointed with us.

Anyway, she said she would be leaving for her office with only those hardworking students, where they would be having a 'private tutor' session.

Yet after making the statement, she did not leave immediately. Instead, she lingered in the classroom for quite some time. And it's not like anyone was saying anything.

I reckon she was waiting for her favorite moment. The 'begging' session.

Well of course she was not disappointed. Heaps of students started apologizing.

It's not the fact that they apologized. It's the way they did it. Total ass-kissers I tell you.

It's so sad that we live in a world that we have to submit to these things so that we wouldn't have to be in a disadvantaged position.

I know I sound like a naive girl, not wanting to accept the reality of the world. But sometimes, the world seems like such a lonely place to live in. It's like no one is completely true to you. Neither can you be, even to the person you care the most.

OMG

Will someone please just kill me. Because I'm gonna die sooner or later.

At first, I had one week to finish 2 assignments which will be due on next Monday. But before I even know it, there's only 2 days left and I'm barely halfway through the first assignment.

Yes, I have not written a single word on the other assignment. I don't even know what have I been doing. (Er ... sleeping? And watching my new addiction: the 'Eli Stone' series)

Somehow my eyelids turn a tonne heavy whenever I open Microsoft Words and start typing. Indeed I am a pro in the Art of Procrastination.

And caffeine does not help alright. I've had 3 doses of it today and I'm still sleepy. And somehow too much caffeine makes me wanna puke. So I've had heavy doses of glucose too.

To top these, I had to attend the class rep meeting today. Got there around 12pm for a light lunch. Not bad ok, got Subway sandwich alright.



Our light lunch lasted an hour. Cause we had to wait for the late-comers. Usual lah, Malaysian time mah.

So the meeting began around 1 and ended at around 3.30pm! 2 and a half hours of my time wasted discussing about things I may never have the chance to witness it happen. Went to the library after the meeting and by the time I reached home, it was already almost 5pm.

See, whole day gone. Not my fault that I didn't do anything today alright?


Oh and something funny happened. Ok, not very funny but well ...

You guys know about this wacky parking attendant at Help's Mainblock right? Well, he likes to disturb the group of us, i.e. MmSiMun, Virgina and me. Each time we paid for our parking at the booth, he would surely make some funny comments that never fails to make us laugh.

So today, as I was paying for my parking,

~

Wacky parking attendant: "Eh, hari ini satu orang?"

Me: "Ya, hari ini tak de sekolah."

Wacky parking attendant: "Oh, sudah kahwin lah?"

~

So, officially MmSiMun & Virgina are married. OMG, incest! Haha, joking joking !

..... Okay, it may not seem funny here. You gotta be there to appreciate the comical situation.

Anyways, back to work.